Congratulations on your first year! I agree with the rest in that you have made A LOT of progress in a year, you play spectacularly!
In Spanish we have an expression that would literally translate to "healthy envy", for when someone has or can do something that we would like to have or to be able to do, but instead of resentment or hard feelings like in normal "envy", we only feel admiration and the wish to do the same. I don't know if there is such an expression in English, but now you know what I feel :)
Best of luck and accomplishments in your second year!
